A country made of stories. Where the Water Tastes Like Wine is a game about the shining lie of America: about the dream of freedom and justice and opportunity, and the darker, more tarnished truth. Stories are currency and resource and the means of unlocking connections with other players. And Johnnemann Nordhagen, the creator of the project, decided to collect those stories from many writers of many backgrounds, making it genuinely multi-vocal.
It was delightful to be asked to contribute, and I knew as soon as I played the original trailer that this was something I wanted to be part of.
The request came when I was getting used to being an immigrant outside America, looking back with a mixture of homesickness and anger, sadness and relief. I live now in a country where I don’t fear being SWATted or shot, and where my health care is free. Meanwhile, UK citizens ask about the American health care system the way you might ask to be told a ghost story. Let us hear how you paid a thousand dollars for an unnecessary ambulance ride of one mile; let us shiver pleasantly and then relax knowing that we will not suffer the same fate. It gets darker when we get to “Also, I have friends who died of cancer because they couldn’t afford to see a doctor about their symptoms until it was Stage IV.” I choose how I tell the story of America on a daily basis.
And I listen to the stories of the UK with the same doubts. You say you had a great Empire and relinquished it, and now you look on American imperialism with the smug compassion of a sober alcoholic. You say you’re not so racist and your police aren’t so brutal. You say you have a safety net for your citizens, and that you’d never let your streets be full of homeless people the way they are in San Francisco. There’s some truth in all that, but also a good measure of lie. I can see the rough sleepers in London; I can see them in Oxford. They’re not invisible.
Stories lost. Johnnemann gave me a character prompt: Bertha, a Dust Bowl survivor who leaves Oklahoma for California.
As it happens, I had a grandfather who was born in Oklahoma and moved to California — and I know very little about the circumstances, except that his personal trajectory was inflected more by the war than by weather or crop failures. I never had a single conversation with him about it.
When I was old enough, my mother passed a few things on to me that he’d told her while she was growing up. They were mostly explanatory notes. Your grandfather is like this because. His friends died and he survived and he didn’t understand why either of those things happened. He went into Germany in 1945 and he saw very bad things. Don’t ask him about it. There was a child he met that he tried to save and he couldn’t. Don’t ask about that either. He came back from the war and his sisters were surprised he had lived through it. They weren’t expecting him back and they’d spent the savings he left with them. Definitely do not mention this. Keep it out of your mind when you see or hear about your great-aunts.
The past was a wound fifty years old, still too raw to touch. The stories could not safely be passed on. I only write this now because my grandfather and his sisters and my grandmother are all gone.
Other stories in my family’s history were lost in other ways. I have Native American blood from several parts of the family tree, but I don’t know the languages, the cultures, the religions or histories of any of my Native ancestors. Something of value was stolen from me — by a different set of great-grandparents. What reparation can I, a woman of European appearance and culture, offer myself, a descendant of displaced Native people? There’s no resolving that.
Stories borrowed. For Bertha, I had dots on a map of Oklahoma where my grandfather’s parents and grandparents had lived. I had some vague outlines of how they got there — including the Cherokee ancestors who had walked to that location, in the worst of circumstances. But I needed more specifics, and I also needed to get a sense of the flavor of period speech: this time, place, and character are well outside my personal idiom.
So to find Bertha’s experiences and her voice, I immersed myself in period sources. Reread Grapes of Wrath, of course, but also Whose Names are Unknown, a rather less-read work by Sanora Babb that provided more specific details, and which felt like an especially good inspiration for writing about marginalized and unheard voices:
Sanora Babb’s long-hidden novel Whose Names Are Unknown tells of the High Plains farmers who fled drought and dust storms during the Great Depression. Written with empathy for the farmers’ plight, this powerful narrative is based upon the author’s firsthand experience.
Babb submitted the manuscript for this book to Random House for consideration in 1939. Editor Bennett Cerf planned to publish this “exceptionally fine” novel but when John Steinbeck’s The Grapes of Wrath swept the nation, Cerf explained that the market could not support two books on the subject. — Sanora Babb website
I also read interviews with Oklahomans and song lyrics by Woody Guthrie and a few repositories of stories about the inhabitants of my great-grandparents’ town. It didn’t make it into the final game, I believe, but we were asked to provide a bit of local folklore. The one I wrote up was a story recounted about an ancestor of mine who supposedly fell into what he thought was an open grave during a black-out dust storm.
I’m from a long line of people that moved on. — Bertha’s story
Stories claimed. Keep Calm and Carry On is an annoying cliché. I would gladly never see that sign again, or any of its cute spinoff memes.
It also embodies a deeply embedded point of cultural difference I didn’t fully grasp until I moved to the UK. Terrible things happen to everyone, of all nations and backgrounds, but my ancestral stories are all stories of leaving. Sometimes those ancestors were literally force-marched out of their homes. Sometimes there was nothing to eat — I have Irish ancestors too. Quite a lot of those stories are directly or indirectly about the greed or cruelty of another group making my ancestors’ lives untenable. This comes into Bertha’s story: she’s not keen on the landowners.
The ethic that came down to me was: if things get too bad where you are, you go somewhere else. You move jobs, you move houses, you move countries. It might be terrifying. You might have nothing to bring with you, and you might suffer additional losses on the way. A few years ago I saw the grave of my great-uncle who died in infancy — he got sick on the boat to America and was the first of his family to be buried in the New World, near the homestead that still belongs to my cousins.
But you move on. That’s how you keep alive. And when I look back at things those ancestors went through, and the strength and courage they showed, this is the legacy I choose to claim for myself: willingness to take necessary risks, and the determination that keeps you moving when you’re bone tired.
Now I live in a country where the national archetype of survival is the Blitz, and where many of my relatives have houses in the same towns where their grandparents or great-grandparents lived. You don’t leave. You shelter in place, you persist, you endure. You hide underground, and when the raid is over you come out and rebuild.
It’s not that one group of people necessarily has a happier past than the other. There are deprivations and pain on both sides. In the late 40s, my older British acquaintances were suffering through postwar shortages at the same time my grandparents were eating lemons off their own tree in California and enjoying a brand new house they’d bought for a couple thousand dollars. The US was refusing to forgive war debts when we could well have done so, a fact I rarely heard mentioned back home but that somehow comes up fairly often over here.
But the survival strategies are different.
The core of Bertha’s character is this will to keep going. She has no patience for people, like her husband, who stopped and looked backwards. The partly-true, partly-false idea of America that I connect with most is not the Statue of Liberty. It is the immigrants writing their new names in the book at Ellis Island; it is the genocide victims forced to walk away from everything they had. Grieving their homes, their languages, their true names, but choosing to change and live.
Other authors have done post-mortem discussions of how they contributed to WTWTLW, including
- Laura Michet
- Kevin Snow
- Bruno Dias
- Cat Manning
- Ryan Ike (composer)
And if the personal history bits of this sound familiar, yes, in a different context I’ve written about some of it before.
4 thoughts on “Worldbuilding America: Where the Water Tastes Like Wine”
Thank you for writing this post-mortem!
I have yet to meet Bertha in WTWTLW but I’m looking forward to it!
This sounds fantastic.